By the way

Tiddy limps all the time again...and he switches which foot to limp with on different days. You can see him holding his paw up in the picture above.

You didn't wish hard enough...

Just kidding. But no, I really didn't get the Denver interview job. It's okay, I think things happen for a reason. Anyways, I'm still unemployed (and plasma-less) so I've had to find things to do.

Soooo, here is something you've never seen on my blog, and probably never will again: me being crafty. I got the idea from an old friend. So be impressed, b/c usually you only get sarcastic comments, funny stories, and sports news on my blog.

For our wedding, Nana (Jess' grandmother) gave us a really nice picture and frame. The frame is wood and pretty big. The only problem is, our apartment has boring white walls, and the wood is a really light color....so it doesn't really look good up on the wall. Sooo, I decided to fix it up a little

Here is the frame. It's really nice, but see how it almost matches the wall? The green tape is where I started to tape off the center portion that is fabric

Here is a close shot of the wood detail

I couldn't find the camera until after I had spray painted it blue and applied a black glaze. I know, me? I did this! Nuts huh? Also....spray painting indoors....yikes.

Before i removed the green tape from the center fabric

Problem. When I removed the green tape, the spray paint and the black paint had both bled onto the fabric. (as you can see from the top and side portion). Soo....I ripped all the fabric off completely. (as you can see from the bottom and left side)

I decided to paint the inner portion completely black...it was really the only option I could think of. So....here is the finished product.

Impressive huh? Anyways, that was my day yesterday. You're welcome for being a craftman.

Wish me luck

So finally, (feels like i've been waiting forever), I'm leaving for Denver tomorrow to interview for the job. I'll be there until at least Wednesday. Wish me luck, send all your good vibes my way, and hopefully I'll have some good news by the end of the week.

Failed again

Told you the plasma center owns me. 122 this time. Or maybe 127....i honestly can't remember. I just laughed. Anyways, I made an appointment for next saturday. That might be my last one, because this obviously isn't working anymore.

I never want to donate plasma again

Okay, while that isn't true, I probably will never be able to again. Here we go again...

Today I went to donate plasma again. The second I left the house, my heart started racing. I could just feel it. After last weeks incident, I looked up ways to lower your pulse. I've been trying all of them this morning. I got to the place and made sure I went to the bathroom right away. Then, I tried everything. I tried to focus on the movie that was playing, I tried texting, I tried watching other people to get my mind off myself, I tried breathing, I tried closing my eyes and relaxing....etc.

All the while, I could still tell that my heart was beating fast. I just kept repeating in my mind, "relax.....relax"

Then I got called into the screening room. It was the same girl from the last time. She was much nicer though. She put the cuff on my arm and after a few seconds, she said what I knew was coming, "you're nervous huh?....you're pulse is 132". 132!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was like, good grief. That's what your pulse should be when you're doing a light workout!! It's time to face it, the plasma center owns me. I'll never be able to donate again, b/c I'll never get my pulse down again. The first time it was a fluke, but now it's all I can think about. I'm not nervous about anything they do there. I don't mind the needles, I don't mind the procedure. But since I failed the pulse last time, it's all I could think about. The lady was nice and told me I had to just think about something else next time. But how can I??? Seriously, how can I not think about it. I tried everything. I tried to be calm and my pulse was 132!!!! I'll never not think about it.

What am I supposed to do? Now I've lost $65 potential dollars from this place. That's a lot of money that I could have used!!!! Any suggestions? How can I get my mind to not think about this now? It's not like I was running around freaking out. It was just in my mind b/c of what happened the last time. ARRRRRRHRHHGGGG

Going again on thursday.....to fail again probably.